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I have been one of the lucky few who have received this special Grace. I am totally in the ether where
changes reach the deepest core of me, and made permanent, All old known boundaries have been
broken and the soul is free to go beyond believing into knowing.
There is no 'Apeksha' (expectation) for the pleasures of 'Swarg' (heaven), as reality is here and now.
"With the Divine- Shreeji - The brilliance of His light drowns me in total devotion and there is
nowhere else I want to go: the 'here and now' is all need to fulfill the soul journey.
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Since back from Nathdwara, every time during the mudras, there are tears: not of sorrow, but of longing -
An incredible longing of wanting to experience myself - of Vrindavan - the different 'vans', the Seva kunj,
the Nikunj van, Shyam Van, Banshi Vat: that sacred Braj bhoomi, the Kadamb trees, the vibrational
fragrance of the divine land: basically all the original atmosphere, all the darshans etc.. Want to return
there : when I realize -
What am i asking for?
Yes, there are memories of something, of some 'time period', and desire to be able to travel back in time -
this separation from Krishn - from these profoundaly intense energies in whose Presence everything feels so
vibrant - is felt at every moment.
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Except in the people close to God who have merged
with the consciousness, can such a quality be felt;
or else -
In a world of beggars, who will give?
All are empty in themselves, hungry for various things -
Higher name, More money, Greater power -
Simply the strong desire to tower above the rest of the
humanity in what ever capacity - could even
be in the mask of religion!
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At times it can become very difficult and dangerous for a
devotee to be confronted by non - believers,
who may want to argue and demand logical explanations for spiritual truths. Only the support from a
divine guru can help maintain the right balance, or else it’s easy to slip in the comfort of the known
way of religion and life, which all approve of. To be able to stay firm, one requires help and guidance
from the right guru or master, who is overflowing; and not hungry nor a beggar.
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Emptying of doubts has to be there, to be able to feel the Higher Energies; which once accepted, will
carry you forward without your even realizing its happening — one day suddenly one awakens to
one's self — Whoa! Is this me? And the love for one's Self and the Divine and the Guru begins — soon
one feels this immense longing for answers — 'Who am I’; and one is 100% set on the journey, where
each moment, each day, is an increment in joy; and of course if one is able to maintain the right
Bhao, there are the incredible moments of 'Darshans', and the most amazing witnessing of divine
energy and aura.
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He shares the 'Sakha bhao', to the fullest with Shreeji Baba; each one relies on the other and love flows freely.
am the disciple of such a Guru and MahaGuru !
It is being handed to me with so much trust —
Why? I ask —
"Your destiny, Your karma — Your naseeb". "You are very lucky that you've been found and the soul awakened, before
it got too late", says Gurushree.
Or else, who knows how many births more would've
passed by, if Grace had not entered my life in the form
of
Gurushree. "The darshans were very magnetic, and
standing there in front of Shreeji Baba, I have this bhao
of wanting
to go and hug Him. As He stands there, looks
so attractive; how can anyone not want to go fall at His
feet and touch
Him. The force is that strong it is
impossible to move away from the charm and magic of
Shreeji Baba".
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This electricity, this energy, this purity and this devotion
and love which fill me are astounding.
Despite all the
hindrances, the Mysterious entered my life and the
search for the knower began.
Sometimes I feel as if I'm
there but not there. Though awareness is not very high I
am just carried
into a state in which I forget myself as
myself — as the personality. But those moments I feel I
have
truly lived and want to extend them forever and
ever.
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Most of us are religious only out of our own greed. We
do not seek Krishn (God). We only seek to
fulfil our greed and sense cravings. For that we follow various
religious practices to try and fulfil our
materialistic needs
and pleasures, which is also ok, but ultimately
satisfaction or peace is not
achieved. Another true point
is — Whatever type of needs we have — that type of
guidance or person
appears in our life. The vibrations
sent out in Tamas, Rajas or Sattvik is what brings back
the results.
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"No matter what everyone else thinks or says, if your
own intentions are right, do not be afraid -
there are
moments when you have to follow the call of your soulif
you want to reach anywhere high
stop giving
unnecessary importance to voices around. Most of them
do not even understand what's
happening; all they're
interested is trying to stop anyone from moving away
from what they think is
the right way to do things".
I clarify this, as many have this wrong understanding; if
one is in search for the truth and depth in
spirituality; the
person is trying to run away from responsibilities and
has stopped caring. I want to
state here that "deeper
insights and higher spirituality teaches one to become
more responsible and develop
develop greater compassion
towards all".
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There are the two identities we all live with — one is the
regular worldly personality; these are the material,
worldly
relationships we are born into; in which I am
known as Abha Shahra — This has to be fulfilled and
the responsibilities
completed in the best possible
manner in total joy. This is also called the "Laukik'—
(worldly) personality". There is the
other identity called
the "Soul or Spiritual identity".
How suddenly it struck me again today, who Gurushree
says I am and how elevated my soul is; That is who I
truly am.
What was I going towards?-
That highest peak which all seekers strive for?-
The search for the 'knower' — The ultimate Reality —
the Truth
So close to Krishn — to Shreeji?—
Am I worth it? Have to be-otherwise I would not have
been chosen for all the blessings and krupa that I
receive,
He always says — "You are very lucky! Your soul is
different"
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There are the two identities we all live with — one is the
regular worldly personality; these are the material,
worldly
relationships we are born into; in which I am
known as Abha Shahra — This has to be fulfilled and
the responsibilities
devotions and
bliss.
other identity called
the "Soul or Spiritual identity".